In fact, I have known for a long time that it is time to let go, but the love that has been deeply reflected in my bones cannot be let go, even though I know that he will be happy only by letting go...
This acquired love will eventually come to an end, and then you can let go.
How ironic! What he cares about is him, and what he cares about is whether he can save the one he loves.
Save up and see again. Expect. . .