"Jiahe." In my hazy sleep, I heard Xiao Xuan's voice.
"What's wrong?" I stuck my head out and asked her.
"Oh, it's nothing. I went to the bathroom and couldn't find the place when I came back." She climbed up to the upper bunk with difficulty and lay down with her back to me.
"Go to sleep, sorry." She said.
This is a sleeper car at 00:08 midnight. I was in my senior year in Nanjing at that time. I am a major in law that I like, have a wealthy family, and a girlfriend Xiao Xuan who has been my childhood sweetheart since childhood. It was the end of the last winter vacation in college, and we were on the train back to Nanjing together. Everything seems happy and perfect in the eyes of others, but in my chest, it is empty.
My body is just a huge and grotesque container. If you try to search for anything inside, then there will only be wind, a wild and violent wind from an unknown source.
"Xiaoxuan." I called her.
"Huh?" She didn't turn around, she just snorted in her nose as a response.
"You said..." I chose my words carefully.
"You said... What would happen if we broke up?" I asked her.
She turned slowly and looked at me.
"Your father will beat you to death, and my father will beat me to death."
I heard her say over the roar of train whistles.