This is a confusing article by a confused author.
When she was still very young, someone told her that children should learn more, but she didn't listen and regretted it deeply.
When she grew a little older, someone told her that good children don't go around looking for trouble. She didn't listen, and her life was in chaos because of this.
When she was a more sensible age, someone told her that girls should be elegant, reserved, and affectionate. She didn't listen, and she will never regret it for the rest of her life.