In my short life, I experienced many passive and active emotional accidents. I slowly turned from ignorance to numbness and passivity. My disappointment in life made me lose the desire to live. I thought it was because I did not live a good life and made myself make mistakes in the choices of every major event. So I felt that if I could do it over again, I would definitely be able to do it well and never cause such a bleak life again. However, when I really had the chance, I still followed the footsteps of fate and walked toward loss step by step. . . . . .