Love someone now,
It's like planting a tree or a flower in the desert.
In addition to the imagined beauty and sadness, soaring and loneliness,
The rest——
They are all the dead branches and remnants of love.
But we still move forward bravely and continue to work hard.
For love? For sex? Or is it just loneliness?
Or——
Hard life?
Fear of death?
Or...
This may not be considered a story, but more like the emotional journey of a thirty-year-old man. The novel describes a man's life from chaos to peace. This process is actually the process from not loving to loving hard, interspersed with some memories of wounds, depicting how a simple and single-minded young man transforms into a dual contradiction of fear and desire for love. The sadness and struggle of the emotional world of a mature man, fragility and cruelty, change and persistence, helplessness and perseverance, madness and helplessness, despair and excitement. Behind the noisy and gorgeous emotional game is a bleeding heart. Try to forget and love, but what will be the result? The novel also reflects the current emotional chaos and the world of all living beings, and thus reflects the destruction and molding of the individual ego by the social environment.