As for me, I am a person who loves fantasy. I have loved random thoughts since I was a child. I am not a good boy. I lie, steal money, and am hypocritical. I am an ordinary person who is not stupid. I feel that I am a pervert. I have no goal in life and live without purpose. I want to commit suicide because I am afraid of pain. I am afraid that everything will disappear after death and I have no soul. There is nothing, and in the end it turns into a handful of loess. It's terrible. I don't want to disappear, I want to live forever. I don't believe in ghosts and gods, but I hope there are ghosts and gods. Everything is contradictory, and my life is meaningless. How come no accidents happened to me? Today I am 19, and an accident happened. I am dead, I should be dead.
I've read a lot of novels and my hands are itchy
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