"I have something that no one gives up to, the absolute only, most important, most important thing. Everything in my life is formed by it, and it cannot be expressed clearly with words. This strong, fiery consciousness. I am full of confidence, this consciousness of mine I am stronger than anyone else, and my consciousness is not inferior to anyone else's. I bleed for this, and create for this. When I was a child, I often gritted my teeth because I couldn't get closer to various consciousnesses. I want to say more than this, and I think of more than this. I can never get close to it. I cry, I am in pain, I am torn apart by myself, I am crazy, but no matter how crazy I am, this little thing never changes. That's why I have new thoughts and understand more truth."
——Ozaki Minami's "Absolute Love"
This article, unlike "Qin Xin Yan", had a lot of savings and a very complete context, and then revised it again and again before posting it online. It is a recent emotion. I don't know why it comes to mind. I have thought about it many times, because "Qin Xin Yan" is already a very complicated novel, and I really hope that the new one can be relaxed and happy, but obviously this emotion is more personal and deeper. I can't make it happy.
It, cannot be guaranteed to be updated because the emotions it, contains are too real.