No one will like a sloppy and unattractive person. If someone does, it will only be a liking and you will never get their love for you, even if you love them very much. My name is Yan, this is my name, I have never thought about changing myself, I have never thought about liking myself. I used to be full of fantasies about everything and had countless hopes. Later, I disliked myself. I loved myself more and more, and I was centered on myself. I never considered other people's feelings, would not let other people's words affect my mood, and would not consider myself from other people's perspective. I became a complete egoist. Although my dead heart still throbs from time to time, I am a person who is afraid of trouble, so I really want to throw my heart away. If, I'm talking about if, don't rush to refute me, I am in a world where human life is like a piece of grass, I will die, maybe by others, maybe by myself, so I am still glad that I live in modern times, but I also hate that I live here, with no determination and no soul, at least I am still alive, but what's the use of living? I am not even cynical, trapped in love, guilty, or full of hatred. Why do I live? I feel like a dead person, lifeless. I dare not go out on the streets. Why do I feel so inferior? I want to hide myself so that you don't see me and don't let you have the opportunity to trample on me. I am particularly afraid every day that you will dig me out of the ground. I am used to the darkness and cannot see the light. What if this is just mimicry? Sorry, it's time for me to exit. Wish I could play other mimics like Paradise