It seems like I have been on a very long journey. I came through the black hole of the universe, and I thought I no longer existed. Objectively speaking, this is indeed the case. I no longer have a physical form, that is, I have no visible original body that belongs to me. I don't know what form I am in now, but I can clearly feel my skin tearing, my blood atomizing, my bones bending and deforming, and the cells all over my body are visibly decomposing and dissipating, that is, the moment I enter that space. The strange thing is that I don't seem to feel any pain either. I just felt that at the moment my material form changed, I was also being pushed by forces from all directions - I experienced ultra-high-speed displacement with the feeling of still standing (the evidence that made me feel that I was moving came from the changing light traces in the space, which was a kind of radiance intertwined with various trajectories).
All of this started in an instant, and suddenly I reached a plane. I was pushed in, and my eyes instantly became pitch black. I was very surprised that at that moment, I felt the sense of touch again, from complete freedom to complete depression, gradually covering my whole body.
This familiar, frightening state. All my will allowed me to open the only way out of this package - I opened my eyes.
I often fall asleep at that moment, and when I wake up, sitting next to me is a familiar warm and caring look.