Let Me Love You

Nonsense: I originally wanted to delete this article, but I couldn't bear to leave the comments below, so I'll lock it. I am very happy to write this article. I think this article has a good intention and I feel that I can write something. At the beginning, it was indeed very smooth to write, but later on... I know that everyone who writes essays encounters this problem-cavin. But I don't even know how the two of them are together. Is this still called Kavin? Embarrassing... I really want to write a complete article, an article that I am satisfied with, an article that I have read and want to read again... An author I like very much, Torias, said: "In order to write articles, I often go crazy in the middle of the night, just to get that feeling. Every word I write, I use my life to exchange..." Every time I see Torias's articles, I always want to cry. There was a dull pain in my heart, and I felt that somewhere in my body was complete. I am obsessed with his writing, his characters, the protagonists' emotions, and their attitude towards life. I want to write something that can impress me. The failure of this article may be that I thought too much and had too many worries, which made me restrained. Of course, my writing style and plot control ability were also a flaw. I once thought of giving up writing. I don't want to put pressure on myself, and I always run away from anything difficult = =. I know my character sucks, and sometimes I can't even stand it. However, I want to get better, I want to become the kind of person I like, and I want to write the words I like. Because I like reading, I started writing; because I felt sorry for BL, I chose Danmei; because I was afraid of wandering, I settled in JJ... Brown, this will pass and everything will be fine, so don't be afraid! You love these children so much, and one day you will be able to show them well. So, have confidence in yourself! If you like it, stick with it! You can debug it. Believe in yourself. (*^__^*) Come up and talk nonsense in the middle of the night, just to cheer yourself up. My nerves have been a bit tense recently, and I have been in a bad mood. I have been jumping around in my bed and talking crazy, but I finally feel a little better. (Laughs.) Okay, work hard, stop being lazy, and since you like it, don't force yourself not to do it. Brown, you always write an article that can be read, right? Even if there is nothing, at least it will be completed smoothly. Such a low requirement cannot be met, right? Have expectations for yourself... Also, don't forget the purpose of writing: [I hope you can feel warm when reading my words. Finally, I posted a passage from torias, which makes me cry every time I read it. I am also a very sentimental person. (I really like Torias! Although, I know very little about him. I'm sorry.) "The article published on Laixian. Com is one year and three months long." I first uploaded "Paradise Garden" in June last year and became a writer on Xian. Com. I didn't know everything about writing yet, so I received encouragement from some seniors. I will always remember it in my heart. The person who has the greatest influence on me in Xianwang is Xiao Ken. He uses Kenmovie to post articles on Xianwang. I still love his articles from then to now. The person who first recommended me on Xianwang was also Xiao Ken. I want to say thank you to Xiao Ken the most. After finishing the journey to heaven, the number of readers gradually increased. I used to struggle painfully and suffer for ranking. It was the truth, but it is no longer the case. Around March of this year, Xian. Com invited me to write a manuscript. At that time, my hands were shaking when I was typing with excitement. After publishing the book, I felt relieved. However, there was no sense of reality. When I felt it was true, someone left a message and told me that he liked my article very much. I will be very excited. I hope everyone will always like what I write. I hope I can share my life experience. I hope no one will follow the path I took. After finishing my sad story, I switched to Lane 28. Xianwang treated me generously and now helped me publish a book on Lane 28. From heaven to Lane 28, perhaps before this update, I have collapsed two or three times. Heart disease is difficult to cure. I have seen many readers who have left messages. They may be facing the same situation as me, but there is nothing I can do. This road is difficult to walk. I have had expectations, I have lost, and now I have. In just a few years, I have gained everything I can experience in my life. Now that I am still alive, I should thank everyone I know here. There are many, many more that I want to say. After Lane 28, it was the turn of the contract. I recalled the order of writing, from bitter love, to ambiguity, to the tacit understanding of the contract, which is a bit like my mental journey in the past two years. I used to be a bit disapproving when someone put the characters in the article on me. Looking at it now, I dare not rashly declare that it is not me. In order to write articles, I often go crazy in the middle of the night, just to get that feeling. Every word I write is exchanged with my life. Every minute and every second of my life is put into my immature words. What do I want to say to everyone? Think about the meaning of everyone's existence. For yourself and for the people around you, what is the meaning of life to you. Writing the contract is a milestone for me. The more I write and the less I write in the future, it depends on how much I feel about life. When you have love, please love as much as you want. When you want to protect yourself, please protect yourself carefully. Don't expect to take back the feelings you have given, because you are writing a precious page for your life. One day, Torias will disappear, but I hope that the articles I have left behind will make some contribution to you and your life. Whether you remember it or forget it; how much Ran Ling endured, just to stick to her feelings; how much pain Qiu endured, just for the happiness of those around her; how He Jun gave in, just to get along harmoniously; how much You Can was wronged, hoping that he could be happy; the world is big, but our existence is small. I will keep writing until I can no longer write. Friends who have always encouraged me, I can't think of anything to say to you. I can only ask you to look at me until the end, okay? You see the heart I put in my words, without skills or barriers, that's all I want to say. Where I will go in this life, I don't know, but at this moment I know that I am still alive, running for my little life, writing for myself every night, and writing for you who are looking forward to it. If I have brought you a little bit of happiness, this life will be enough!" When I read "Termination of Contract", it was my first time and I liked it very much. I was very happy to see such a good article. The second time, I felt inexplicably sad... The third time, I cried... I cry every time I watch it from now on, including the above paragraph "A paragraph written before the termination of the contract". Brown gibberish on March 21, 2009 at 1:57 am. Conception: