When he was kicked out of the house by his father. The first thing that comes to my mind is death.
Because I really can't find any reason for myself to live. So all I can do is think carefully about what is the better way to die?
Jumping off a building is unromantic and too unoriginal. The body of a person who died after jumping into the river will become ugly if soaked in water. I really don't like this kind of thing. Hanging and self-immolation were not even on my mind. I am a person who attaches great importance to appearance. I simply can't stand this sloppy way of dying.
I finally decided that I should take poison and die and spend the few dollars I had on one more big meal before I died. After all, I hope that I will be a glorious dead ghost when I die.