If I had...
——There is no if.
If there is an if, I will eat it.
... The author is insane.
Please read the first chapter for the introduction of the work, there are too many words.
As is the old rule, the introduction to the work is also the general outline of the full text. That's all. It involves receiving the attack instead of attacking. In the early stage, the attack is pursued and accepted, but later it is no longer the case.
The author is still a eunuch. To be honest, this manuscript was written during the summer vacation of 2018.
One sentence summary explanation: I like you, but it is one-sided and I can't get the response I want. For me, this is as painful as a punishment. Of course, I still hope you know that my love for you is not eternal. If you really can't accept it... I'll give up.