The experience she learned from her parents was to wait with time and never give up on each other. So she doesn't know what to do if she gives up on someone?
In the dead of night, when she can't endure the endless loneliness, she will choose to drink red wine, drinking lots and lots of red wine to get herself drunk to the point where she will no longer suffer from insomnia.
After many years, the widows who were buried in their hearts returned, and then they realized that they owed each other too much. We can only continue to pester him to death.