Semi-Dream Space

Someone once asked Yan Yue, "What is the semi-dream space?" Yan Yue thought for a while and replied, "Half-dream is half-awake. It is unable to wake up but cannot sleep. It is neither alive nor dead. It is a no-man's land on the edge of reality and dream." ——And she has always lived there. * My life was a mess, my soul was chaotic and disorganized, and there were two voices in my head that were constantly fighting. A voice said: You must become a good person like your parents. Another voice said: Abandon your conscience, evil is your essence. In the end, I compromised and thought: becoming a hypocrite is the best choice for me. But the reality of my life is that good is not complete and evil is not pure. I seem to be living in a half-dream and half-awake world, which I call the half-dream space. Someone asked me: What is the semi-dream space? I think I can answer this: Half-dream is half-awake, it is neither waking up nor sleeping, neither living nor dying, it is the uninhabited land on the edge of reality and dream. And I've always been there. So I contradicted myself, attacked myself, and longed for death. How should I see myself clearly? This is a difficult problem for me. So I want others to look at me clearly and, to be more precise, attack me. Giving others a sharp edge and stimulating others to pierce my heart is the happy ending I set for myself. ——Yan Yue. Purpose: Self-discovery