A pair of bare hands fiddle with three thousand weak waters. A hundred thousand stars are all under the curtains of the boudoir, but I sit on the crown of the Big Dipper but I am a spoiled guest. Above the temple, I have all the power in the world, but in the mist of the rivers and lakes, I don't have a son to share the pole.
This is a woman who was supposed to die, but was miraculously resurrected. She returned to the mortal world as a man, seemingly leaving behind all the past of her dead body. However, under the stars in the night, she could not help but wonder what kind of old good things lingered in her chest, causing the yin and yang of the two lives to linger.
And since she has died once, she cannot be honest with the person she loves most. This is indeed the most painful thing in the world.
But as long as you are alive, you can have hope, and you can work hard towards hope.
So she is still alive and intends to continue living.