Because of bullying, laissez-faire, and selfishness, my growth has become ugly and greedy, and my mistakes at every step have made me fall into an endless abyss. The light that cannot be given by the outside world, I hope, can weave a beam of light from within myself. It is a derivative of a period when I was confused and bored. It is full of loopholes, short in length, and a little suspenseful. I don't know if it is a real ending. I just want to put the article in one place. The Internet is virtual. If you like it, read it. If you don't like it, turn it off. Thank you.