In the second month after graduating from college, the messages I sent to the University of Illinois began to disappear. At first, I thought it was because the University of Illinois had not recovered from the shock, so I didn't think too much about it. But it wasn't until a month later when I still hadn't received any news from the University that I realized that the situation might be different from what I thought.
I contacted my aunt at the University of Illinois with trepidation, but the news I received was like a bolt from the blue.
I don't know how long this unspeakable feeling will stay with me, but to this day, I still can't let go at all, and I hope to have a shoulder to cry on...