She has the least resistance to people like Xu Si. She is calm, quiet, self-possessed, and restrained. These qualities she has always wanted for herself. She once tried to make herself become such a person, but it was contrary to her nature. In the end, she only turned into a two-faced person. She was naturally willful and unrestrained.
She is arrogant, looks down on everything, has extremely low self-esteem, and is afraid to open up to herself. She feels that she deserves the best, but also feels that she is not worthy of being given. She loves herself because she hates herself.
Until she saw Xu Si, he was the person she had been waiting for, the person she longed to appear. But facing Xu Si, she only felt that she was not worthy of being loved.