Ever since I found out about Chilam's existence, I would dream about him from time to time, sometimes good and sometimes bad, but I didn't care. Because I know that those are just dreams and not worthy of truth. And most of them don't have any profound plots, and no matter how good they are, they're easy to forget. But that day, I was so frightened that I dreamed that he was bleeding (I don't need to be specific). He thought he was going to die, but unexpectedly, two people tried their best to perform extracardiac compression and saved his life. It seemed like it was time to celebrate, but when he opened his eyes, what I saw was not happiness, but pain, not desire for life, but the pursuit of death. For a moment, I was shocked. I could no longer dream and woke up. But the memory of just now is still vivid in his mind, and he can clearly feel the pain of his existence. I think of someone who said, "It is better to die happily than to live in pain." Some people said, "It is too painful to live." I really don't know if it were me, facing Chilam like that, whether I would choose to let him struggle in "life" or be free in "death". Therefore, this kind of contradiction gave me many story ideas.
Of course, I may have watched too many dramas, so I unconsciously thought of another question: What kind of love is the most painful? …Falling in love with someone you shouldn't love? Fall in love with someone who doesn't love you back? Or the person you love deeply moves away from you? Maybe both, maybe neither...
Hee hee, actually I don't know either.
Conception: