She traveled through time and had to disguise herself as a man because of her mother's fight for favor. She originally thought that watching was a way of seeing through the world of mortals, so in this life she just wanted to be a happy spectator and didn't want to meet the aloof and lonely her. For her, she stepped into the world, and for her, she hired someone from the city just to give her a peaceful home.
Because of her father's kindness in her previous life, she had no choice but to marry someone she didn't like. She wanted to be like this for the rest of her life, but she met the unruly woman. For her, she had struggled, complained, and hated her. Because she knows she loves her, she can only blame her; because she knows she loves her, she can only hate her.
Ling Yushu: Yan'er... I...
Xiao Suyan: Is this your love? Sorry, I can't afford it and I don't want it.
Xiao Suyan: Yushu, where are you? I misunderstood you. Can you come back? I miss you so much.
Ling Yushu: Yan'er... Yan'er... I'm sorry, I really have to break my promise this time, forget me.