If I had known that thinking about him would make me sick in the future; if I had not given him the marriage in the first place; if... If I could let go of secular prejudice and public opinion; let go of the intrigues in the fame and fortune market. Will the ending be different?
The regret of not trying hard, the reluctance of not being able to love, the regret of being unable to escape.
The five senses are intertwined. Yearnings accumulate over time, like thousands of insects and ants crawling and biting.
The pain eventually breaks through and invades the bone marrow.
Conception: