An experience that I have never imagined, a tenderness that I have never imagined, and a hurt that I have never imagined. The frivolous young man with a chaotic family and extreme personality and the gentle, ordinary, timid and childish boy, what kind of path will they take for themselves in the tail of youth? On this road of growth, whether it is passion or blood and tears, it is a choice that I will never regret. Coincidence, companionship, chaos; family, distance, faith. This is an ordinary and profound story, a vulgar and lengthy dream, and a story about persistence and deep faith. "I am both sugar and poison, are you sure you want to taste it?" "I have tasted everything, whether it is sweet to death or poisonous to death, I accept it!" This is the author's first time writing a novel and publishing an article, because it is adapted from a story of the author's personal experience. Of course, there will be many fictitious places, but it is also to give myself a memory. The writing is not good, so please don't comment if you don't like it. The author just wants to present this story to you quietly. I am also very grateful to those who read the article. Thank you for listening to me telling a story and giving me this opportunity to feel this taboo love with you.