I have put down my pen for many years. When I look back and think about the things that have happened in the past few years, my heart is full of negative energy. I want to sort it out. I want to pick up my dreams again, the dreams I have had since I was a child. I want to continue my ideals. I want to take these things that happened to me as a warning to everyone. In my short 21 years, I feel like I have lived a lifetime. I have tasted all the bitterness and sweetness.