Not to Pour Out the Country and the City, but to Pour Out Everything I Have

It turns out that fate is not unfair, it's just that we didn't do enough. My mind is on that world that I dream of but is out of reach. I once thought that the Iron Blood Castle was just the rivers and lakes, but when I was in it, I found that this was not the rivers and lakes I wanted to be in. There was no fighting and killing here, but there was tenderness and love between children. I think it may be very hard to be able to do something you like consistently, but for me, even if it is hard, it cannot be worth the joy in my heart. Sometimes I also wonder whether it is worth it to be so obsessed with the world. Later, I figured out that it is not worth it, because for me, this world is a dream and makes my blood boil, but what is more valuable is the persistence of not forgetting the original intention. All I can do is live up to this intention. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ A lie made up on the spot. From now on, Zhongyuan must be my brother. Well, instead of enduring the pain of separation, why not just be brother and sister. I have to forget the past, forget myself, and start over. I must adapt to the days when the Central Plains is my brother, so that I can survive in this world. Since then, I have changed, and so has Zhongyuan. It's like we got to know each other again. He is my brother and I am just his sister, that's all. In this way, each can be well. They say that two people who love each other deeply cannot be friends, but we are only brothers and sisters. I finally understand that some so-called emotions are so feeble in the face of war. I thought I was strong, but it turns out that I can also pretend, and even I don't know how to pretend. It turns out that I am so fragile, I can't withstand any emotional changes, and I am so fragile that I can push myself down. Thinking about myself like this, I feel very ridiculous. Living in troubled times, with internal and external troubles, how can I still have such leisurely leisure to entangle the love between my children. Many times, it is not others who put themselves in danger, but themselves, because they cannot hold on to their sobriety!