Ingesting too much caffeine on an empty stomach every day will cause your blood sugar to rise and disappear sharply. The feeling of dizziness, almost tipsiness, yet still being so irritatingly sober - I was addicted to this feeling. But the disappearance of blood sugar no longer brings about the instinctive and uncontrollable rage.
I know, I'm dead. I didn't understand until now that I was dead. In fact, I died the day my little brother left.
In fact, I envy my little brother, not only at that time but also now. Not just envy, but jealousy.
I was jealous of his education then, and now I'm jealous of his freedom. And I know this jealousy will continue for a long time.