Five years is a long time for Wuwei young man who is about to turn twenty-two. I don't fill my life with busy work, I don't fill my empty heart with money, I can't meet new people and forget the old ones like in the TV series.
I originally thought it would take me two years to forget someone, but God has no mercy on me, who has been in a period of emotional blankness. Even when I changed several times to new environments, I was always surrounded by otakus and bitches, so that I couldn't escape for several years. I'm thinking about how I can bring a perfect ending to our love that ended before it even started?
I deleted your phone number and endured not seeing you again. Why didn't I deliberately not tell you when I was about to leave... I told myself every day how unsuitable you were for me, and even if we were together we wouldn't last long. I even told my best friend countless times that I have let go of you. I am just living alone in a strange place. You are my defense against wolves. Only by keeping you in mind will I not be so easily deceived.
However, only I know that those are all self-deception. I have not forgotten you, time has not made you disappear in my memory, but it has become more profound.
So I was thinking... Maybe, what if, I used all my clumsy words to write a book for you, and then set it on fire.
Maybe, the memories with you in my mind can disappear like this pile of words.