I am about to celebrate my 22nd birthday in ten days. At this confused moment, I decided to write these things. These words may be seen by many people, or probably not by anyone. Let's write it honestly, that's what I think. Whether it's sad or happy, I want to tell it honestly. However, as long as it is a human work, it will inevitably be mixed with personal emotions and personal evaluations. I want to be as fair as possible. Even if it is the person who caused me pain, I do not want to ignore the good intentions behind them. Even so, I have no hope of writing it out for people to evaluate, because the real life I have experienced is a part of my life, and whether I like it or not, it cannot be eliminated. So don't judge me, say whether I did well or not. Now that it's over, I just want to spend it quietly. But it's impossible for me to write out everything about me. After all, everyone has secrets that need to be kept, and everyone has a past that they don't want to be ashamed of. I don't want to strip myself naked for everyone to see, so let me keep my underwear.