My emotional entanglements with four men
——I would like to dedicate this to the last moments of my twenty-one-year-old life.
My relationship started with online dating.
I was only fifteen years old at that time. A fifteen-year-old girl is like a rose in bud, delicate and beautiful, but also fragile and easy to break.
At the age of fifteen, I didn't understand love, I hadn't learned how to treat everything around me, let alone what love was.
My online relationship only lasted a few months and disappeared just before I graduated from junior high school.
Nonetheless, I am a nostalgic person. I still have every letter he wrote to me and every photo he sent me intact.
I have never met him, and I have even forgotten his voice. But I exchanged dozens of letters with him. Every sentence and every word in the letters is full of the yearning and simple heart of the young and green years. Those dozen letters alone are enough to leave people with no aftertaste.
Psychologist Annan once said: "The most unforgettable thing in life is to experience your first kiss, first night, and first love." He analyzed: The reason why first kiss, first night, and first love are unforgettable is because they are the "emotional valve" for a person's transition from boyhood to adulthood.
As far as I'm concerned, what's left of this?