The autumn rain is slightly cool, chilling my heart, the cold wind outside is howling, the white building seems to be erratic in the heavy rain, the smell of disinfectant water hits my nose and mouth, the door of the operating room is swaying in the cold wind, the lights in the corridor are flickering on and off, there are choking sounds in the operating room, everything seems to be brewing. I tighten my clothes involuntarily, everything is so strange to me, I don't know how I came to this place, and why I am standing here...