This is not entirely true, and this is not the inner experience of personal experience. However, this is a kind of sensitivity that obeys the heart, a vent, a nonsense, and a willfulness. Or it's an emotional article, or it can't be called it at all.
Qianqi is also trying to live, even though it is very tiring, even though she must obey reason rather than emotion. However, people not only live for the feelings of the heart, but also for faith, which is the bottom line of life that cannot be ignored, the self-esteem of the nation, and the reason of being a human being. What is the purpose of life or death?
(Japan has always been a sensitive topic. Writing this article is really not disrespectful to Japanese history. It is just to let people today not to forget history, and to give me as a current person a chance to express my inner feelings. I hope that real Japanese friends will forgive me for my "tampering", and I hope that people who know this period of history will not laugh at my stupid fabrication.)