Joy, rejoice
My mother said that this word looks a bit sad, but it actually means a good thing.
The year I was born, the family situation was in dire straits, my father was in a coma in bed, and my mother, who was still pregnant with me, was kicked out by her two sisters. She looked through the dictionary and one person named me.
"Xiaoyi, life sometimes seems very melancholy, but you still have to live with hope."
My beautiful mother and I, as well as my father who never woke up again, spent 19 years with hope.
No one has ever said anything bad about Zhuo Yi, and no one has refused to interact with Zhuo Yi. Because I have always been a beautiful boy who repays evil with kindness, and I am as gentle as my mother, so she always teases, "Xiao Yi, you look like a girl." I smile, yes, I have been treated as a girl since I was a child.
But she often cast a worried look when I smiled brightly.
I know there is an innate emptiness growing ferociously in my heart. I couldn't get close to anyone, and I really longed for some kind of intense emotion. That kind of loneliness opened up a big hole in my heart over the years. I was alone for 19 years and almost gave up looking for the person who could fill it.
Mom said worriedly: "My little Yi is so good, but why is he always depressed?"