He gave himself a knife, but it was not in a fatal place. As a result, he still lacked courage. He was afraid of death. The pain spread from his wound to his whole body. He curled up and cried out in pain.
Yes, he knew very well that when that person died he was just like him now. It's just that that person was not lonely at that time, but I am very lonely now.
There is no one to accompany him to die, he is alone. This is something scarier than pain...