I am proficient in almost all rune styles, but I am addicted to defense. I long to see the enemy hitting my defense in vain. I hope to see despair in their eyes. I long for them to scream unwillingly. However, something suddenly happened and I have no choice. I want to use the shield in my hand to guard the people I cherish, but I also want to return to my parents to take care of them as they are old. What should I do?