This is a running account, which mainly records the changes in Meng Yueren's life and mentality from her graduation from college to her fourth year of work. In the eyes of outsiders, Meng Yueren is beautiful, intellectual, and quiet; in the eyes of her friends, she is lively, arrogant, and willful; but in Meng Yueren's heart, she is lonely, perverse, and has low self-esteem. The complex and contradictory individuals finally tore away the heavy constraints, but I don't know whether they can welcome a new life.