I don't know how every girl will reach the other side of happiness after experiencing first love, quarrels, and breakups. I feel that my other side seems to have completely left me when I was 26 years old, because these experiences of mine were filled with conspiracy, cruelty, and death, which made my happy boat overwhelmed and completely sunk.
I often wake up late at night, and every second after I wake up, I am tortured by the pain of being abandoned, forgotten, and trampled on. So I wanted him to feel the same pain as me, and then find my own happiness in his pain. So, I chose to be an Avenger.
The other one found me, helped me heal, and took me to be reborn in a foreign country.
But can rebirth really make it possible to forget the past and return everything to zero?
I often think: I am lucky to have him and such a proud man who loves and hates me; I am also unlucky to experience the darkness of human nature such as conspiracy, forgetfulness, selfishness and cruelty prematurely. I spent every girl's most precious girlhood in the gray area.
How can I walk the path below me and still find happiness?