"Peace, I've been waiting for you for a long time. I've been waiting and waiting alone. I've almost forgotten you. I almost thought, otherwise I would just give up. I can make do without you. It doesn't have to be yours.
But, when I think about it, I have to live my whole life with other people. I can bear it for one month or two, and maybe one or two years. But for such a long life, I have to face the same person, and that person is not you.
I couldn't predict that other people would meet me, see me at one glance among tens of thousands of people, lock their eyes on me, and say with the same certainty and affection, "It's her."
I was confused and frightened. But I think you are different. You must be different, there is no reason why. This is my bet.
So Ping An, you are the most beautiful face I have ever seen when I was 14 years old. Every face that I have seen since then is like yours when I was 14 years old. Every deep murmur I have ever heard is you. The mountains and rivers are all you. The clear sky and bright sun are still you. The wind, frost, thunder and rain are still you.
After meeting you, I was sad and happy. There are intense emotional ups and downs all the time. It feels like gaining and losing repeatedly every moment. "