I Fell in Love with You at First Glance, but Spent My Whole Life Forgetting You

I have loved him for ten years. In these ten years, the only thing I have been thinking about is, Just try to get close to him. Father knows my thoughts, The emperor's younger brother also knows, I don't want to force him, But in the end he was forced to marry me... Do you know that feeling? It's like... His misfortune is all because of me, But obviously... The only thing I shouldn't be, It was at the palace banquet ten years ago, Falling in love with him for no reason! Conception: