++++ Over the years, my original attachment to those people and things gradually faded away, dispersed, and eventually disappeared.
Occasionally I think about it, if I hadn't been so stubborn at the beginning, I might be in a different situation now. From the beginning to the end, I am the only one who takes it seriously, the only one who is unwilling to accept it, and the only one who suffers.
After searching for these years, I finally realized that there is no "what if" in this world, only the present.