Looking back at history, when the German poet Goethe was down and out, it was the fields of sunflowers that made him feel that there was still warmth in the world; the poet Du Fu was old and sick, and it was the sunflowers by the river that restored his belief in continuing to fight. Looking at the sunflowers blooming with bright smiles facing the sun in the farmland, Rui Yue thought silently in her heart. Rui Yue, 42, suffers from a common problem among middle-aged women: she is afraid of aging and advancing age. After entering the age of 40, menstruation is irregular, and the menstrual period comes only once every two months, so I go to the hospital to see a doctor of traditional Chinese medicine for treatment. After taking medicine, menstruation will come early. On the day of menstruation, regardless of time and place, I will criticize the people and things I hate in my past life. In short, I will be upset and unbearable, only Xu Xu. Only nagging can relieve the fire, but after saying it, I regret it. Within a few minutes of regretting, I start nagging again. A day has passed over and over again. I lie in bed and sleep until 4 or 5 o'clock in the middle of the night. In the regret, my intestines are sober with regret. Reason has returned to the body. How can I say those words? This is the darkest place in my heart. How can I live in front of others? Have you become the nagging old woman you deeply despised when you were young? However, if you say it out loud, it will throw water away. The matter has ended and cannot be changed! There was no way to make up for this loss. Rui Yue felt like a piece of fat pork placed on the chopping board, nakedly displayed in front of the customers, her body was in pieces, she couldn't bear to look at it, and her heart was filled with grief and anger beyond words. Life is like a long river of muddy water, flowing along with time, turning a delicate and beautiful woman into such a lamenting woman!