In fact, I have asked myself many times if I am stupid, knowing clearly that there will be no results, but still not wanting him to leave silently. Maybe I will never be able to enter his world, never be able to keep up with him, and maybe I will never be able to wait for him, but I still don't want him to fade away from my memory.
I often wonder if even I forget him, he will not exist at all. In this way, I forced myself to remember every detail in the past ten years, fearing that my wait for these ten years would be fruitless, because I didn't know how many more ten years I would have.
But when that day came, I found that I felt particularly calm, because he came back, ending my fearful waiting.
You're back now, why wait any longer?
——Wu Xie's preface