If this is the ending you want, then the only thing I can do is to make it happen for you.
I'm not afraid of life, not afraid of death, not afraid of you hating me, and not afraid of you forgetting me. The only thing I'm afraid of is you.
After ten years of separation, life and death are uncertain. I have walked through so many days and nights alone, so much lovesickness and suffering, and even if I think about it occasionally, I will feel despair.
I just hated myself and couldn't do anything about it.
I just love you hopelessly.
I just want to turn into dust for you, my temples will be stained with dust and frost, and I will turn into mud and scatter in your world. I will never leave you in this life.
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