In fact, I always wanted to tell how much I cared, but in the end, my eyes were lifeless. The psychiatrist said that from the time he met me until now, there has never been a god in my eyes. I asked him what god is. He said that it was as if I had experienced despair. At this young age, I chose decadence and depravity... The people you once loved will also hurt you the most. The person who pushed you into the sea must be the person you loved most and loved deeply...