To this day I still can't forgive myself
Because I care too much, I become distant
Things that have never existed around me suddenly become within reach. Even everyone would doubt that the feeling of holding it in my hand makes me feel fake.
There are too many things that I'm not sure about. I'm not sure how long her love can stay with me, and I'm not sure if I can be strong when she stops loving me one day. What I mean is, of course, that I am afraid that I will not be able to bear the disappointment caused by such a grand surprise. In order to avoid that unfortunate ending, I am willing to give up the joy at the beginning.