I hate my own emotionality for escalating what was originally a simple conflict step by step; I even hate my own weakness for allowing Lu Bo to push further. I went to the monitor about this matter, but the monitor did not agree to change the dormitory. He said that I have a delicate temperament that needs to be tempered and reformed in the melting pot of the army. When I returned to my bed and faced the dirty dormitory, I couldn't stop crying. I simply cannot accept the situation of being a helpless victim.