This article is not very exciting and the rhetoric is not very appropriate. It is just my own recollection and summary of the past thirty-three years. People always change themselves under some irresistible factors, and they always lose their original self due to changes in the surrounding environment, which leads to As a result, I have lost my true nature, cannot see myself clearly, and cannot find where I should be and what I should do. My main intention in writing this article is to see myself clearly, recognize myself, and find the right path and life goal for myself in the future. I hope that I can truly achieve this wish after writing it.