The girl fell in love with her cousin's classmate, and the two met for the first time and ended up together. The girl promised the boy to accompany him through four seasons, more than ten seasons. Boys are happy, but girls have not had something within reach of boys since childhood. Girls envy boys to have father's love, a stable family, reunion of relatives or some small happiness. The girl suffers from mild depression, and the boy is by her side, but the ending is not happy. This is the author's story.