Since losing the first so-called mirror of self in which emotions were reflected, he has become a mentally ill patient in the emotional world. He has begun to regard everything around him as nothingness, but has a special sense of smell for emotions. At this time, his delicate grasp of the emotional world has reached a kind of perverted perfectionism, and he has his own perspective on the world, and he is always measuring it with his own ruler. He looked at the world. And he found her with his own set of world vocabulary. He called her rubbish. He said that if there is anything in this world that I like, it is what this world despises. What this world despises is what I pursue passionately, so he called him rubbish. She didn't understand. He gave her the highest love, full of heart and soul, and emotional language and symbols that belonged only to him.