Voiceless Rhyme

In my mind, falling in love with someone is like falling in love with the weather. I am happy when it is good and sad when it is bad. I devote all my feelings and thoughts to him. But I don't know that when I truly dedicate myself, it is the moment when my lover abandons me. What I get will never be the best! Life seems to always make you laugh. When I choose to let go and pursue the happiness that a woman should have in her life, my former lover appears again and again, and the past feelings are still vivid in my mind, and I can't extricate myself! How should I choose between my current husband and my past lover? God is always idle and bored and likes to joke with others. Little does he know that if the joke is too big, it will have incredible consequences. Should I continue to joke... Or...