After two years of untying the knot, I gradually began to reduce my self-righteous judgment of good and evil. It is not about making peace with the "grey area", but more about trying to feel the emotional fluctuations of the world and striving to achieve the integration of individual life and the universe.
Thanks to "Anastasia", I confirmed that the image of the perfect woman in my mind was not an illusion.
Please call me a naturalist.