I am a boy born in the 1990s. This is my personal experience. It is a secret that I keep in my heart, but I want to tell it. Here, I tell the story of how I went from a college student who just entered the world to being kept step by step, and where will I go in the future. Of course, I will also talk about the circle I am in, a circle that ordinary people will not be exposed to, so that you can understand the mental journey of people like us. Although I know that I may not be accepted by the world, at this point, I no longer care about what others say. I just want to tell it here and tell my truest story.